Pre-pre-pre

<sub>I hate hearing people argue. Don't you? Especially when men yell. Theres just something about a man yelling that makes my spine tingle.

Unfortunately I live next to a family whose father looooves letting everyone know he's in control. Dominant. It begins around 7:30am until sun down. I have no idea what he's bitching about... They speak Arabic.


Anyways. They're not the only family that has been having some issues.


You ever feel like, especially since you're older... You get dramatically distance from your family? Hmm.

As of late, I have been almost transparent to the family. I get a few comments here and there. Relating mostly to cleaning. I guess we don't really have much else to talk about. Since I am the only one who doesn't work other than my brother. (though technically he gets out way more than I do... so I guess thats enough to classify him as active.)

Everyday, I've been the little house wife. Cleaning early in the day, till late afternoon. Prepping dinner by 6-7. Cooking, mingling about other people's days. Taking out the trash, vacuuming, scrubbing the bath-tub... etc, etc, etc.

Then they all bitch and whine about me sleeping in late for a few days.

Other than the weird, apocalyptic weather we've been having, (which has probably taken a toll on me as well.) there is a lot to be accounted for when I'm tired.
1) I watch my siblings from 9am-7pm (all 5 of them)
2) Have you ever cleaned the back side of your toilet??
3) I clean!
4) I cook your food! >:0


Theres just something about a sleeping, dreaming, contentious person that just drives another person crazy.

"Why are you so tired lately?"
"You don't have any reason to be tired. You don't work!"
"Why aren't the dishes cleaned?"
"Is any one going to make dinner??"
"You're not cheery like you used to be."
"Whats up with your attitude? Didn't you get enough sleep last night."
"Like taking care of the house is such a BIG task."
"I'm on my feet all day. What the heck have you been doing?! Oh, cleaning. Psh."


I don't feel appreciated. I certainly don't feel like I've been given the respect I deserve.

Then everyone complains about my attitude towards everything. "You're grumpy," "You're moody," "Still on your period!? God." What the fuck!

Why do you think I'm upset!? Can anyone just consider where I'm coming from, and give me just an ounce of understanding! D: GRAH!!


Yeah I don't work. So I guess thats a good enough reason to treat me like shit. Like when business people go to burgerking, and bitch about how they're better than them.

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Because of my colorful moodiness, I haven't been giving everyone the proper "hello" or "Hi!" lately. My grandparents won't even look at me sometimes when they come over. My dad hardly calls. Some of my closest friends have been put on the back burner because I can't set my sleeping habits straight. I have other priorities now, it seems. Being the back bone of the family. Teaching the kids responsibility and respect.

No one understands that... perhaps I am the one holding everybody together. I sure feel like I do.



I should've stayed in cali.

Or atleast found an apartment.

But nope. My grandma suckered me into believing it was my obligation to save my mother, yet again, from the grip of my step-fathers bullshit.

And so I did.

And I don't get credit for any of it.

What ever.</sub>

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COMMISSIONS

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CRAP


Today is just another day. But hey! Happy 4th of July people.

The one day out of the year where you can act a complete arrogant ass about your country.

Go on, toss that old couch on the lawn. Open a few beers, fart where everyone can hear you. Get close with that 'distant cousin' of yours.

Don't forget to disregard those fire-work safety regulations.




But seriously. Have fun. Congregate, live, love. ETC


Love Your Banana Space Jerky,
Andrea aka MzGrace.