What the fork?


What is it with the young people lately!?

So glad I'm finally 20. Everything is starting to make sense now. Being young was so effing confusing. Having to deal with those hormonal issues... I finally understand why adults get so fed up with whiny little children.

(and I don't mean babies. They whine for reason.)

Kids these days.. just seem more depressed, and more so lazy.

I can't easily say, "Just go do something." if clearly I don't already have that mindset.


I got punked within two days by these bratty little minors! How the fuuuu. Geez, talk about taking everything so seriously.

Cheer up little emo-kid. The world is only as bad as you make it.


(and I don't mean to offend clinically depressed teens... You have your legitimate reasons as to why you are upset.)

I mean this for those arrogant pieces of shit, that walk around all smar-assed. Fahk Q!

Sursly, no one gives a crap about you. Spend a little less time being an asshole, and more time working on your inner-self.

As cheesy as that sounds.. It may just work for ya.

Grah. I love morning rants. It seems the longer I stay up, the more vulnerable I am to being fucked with by some pubescent turd.


I really need sleep.

Sleeping in till 7pm today was probably not all that good. And my sudden change to seek more acquaintances... well that just flat out flopped. I think I should just still to rooms I know, and the wonderful people that idle within them!


NO LONGER WILL I NEGLECT YOU FRIENDS.


(and if you read this journal, you know who you are. And if you decide to delete it... well... fahk q!)


-Andrea aka Scuddleboo





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Hm..

I'm starting to get annoyed by a few people lately.

I try to be very patient, and less opinionated. I hate causing to many bridges to burn between relationships, but a lot of the time, I find my self dragging a long to other peoples crap.

Its frustrated to learn, or know for a very long time, that I'm just a 'back-burner' friend. Meaning I'm the one they come to when they're bored, or find me as a last resort.

I'm really hurt and annoyed by it. These people I call my friends, hardly know anything about me, (nor do they make an attempt to ask) yet I have to sit there and listen to them spill their life story.

I like communicating, and I enjoy listening. But when I need them for my story to be heard, they will merely shrug their shoulder, or avert the subject to a topic that is more suited to their interests.

Now I ask myself, Should I just stop talking to them all together, and hope they notice I'm not gonna be there?

Or should I let them know, and prepare for another bridge to get burned?


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Based on a Ghost-town.

All races (demons, ghosts, ghouls, vampires, incubus/succubi, zombies, undead, corpses, apparitions, humans, hounds, beasts.) omitted!

Skillful RPers wanted!


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Pre-pre-pre

<sub>I hate hearing people argue. Don't you? Especially when men yell. Theres just something about a man yelling that makes my spine tingle.

Unfortunately I live next to a family whose father looooves letting everyone know he's in control. Dominant. It begins around 7:30am until sun down. I have no idea what he's bitching about... They speak Arabic.


Anyways. They're not the only family that has been having some issues.


You ever feel like, especially since you're older... You get dramatically distance from your family? Hmm.

As of late, I have been almost transparent to the family. I get a few comments here and there. Relating mostly to cleaning. I guess we don't really have much else to talk about. Since I am the only one who doesn't work other than my brother. (though technically he gets out way more than I do... so I guess thats enough to classify him as active.)

Everyday, I've been the little house wife. Cleaning early in the day, till late afternoon. Prepping dinner by 6-7. Cooking, mingling about other people's days. Taking out the trash, vacuuming, scrubbing the bath-tub... etc, etc, etc.

Then they all bitch and whine about me sleeping in late for a few days.

Other than the weird, apocalyptic weather we've been having, (which has probably taken a toll on me as well.) there is a lot to be accounted for when I'm tired.
1) I watch my siblings from 9am-7pm (all 5 of them)
2) Have you ever cleaned the back side of your toilet??
3) I clean!
4) I cook your food! >:0


Theres just something about a sleeping, dreaming, contentious person that just drives another person crazy.

"Why are you so tired lately?"
"You don't have any reason to be tired. You don't work!"
"Why aren't the dishes cleaned?"
"Is any one going to make dinner??"
"You're not cheery like you used to be."
"Whats up with your attitude? Didn't you get enough sleep last night."
"Like taking care of the house is such a BIG task."
"I'm on my feet all day. What the heck have you been doing?! Oh, cleaning. Psh."


I don't feel appreciated. I certainly don't feel like I've been given the respect I deserve.

Then everyone complains about my attitude towards everything. "You're grumpy," "You're moody," "Still on your period!? God." What the fuck!

Why do you think I'm upset!? Can anyone just consider where I'm coming from, and give me just an ounce of understanding! D: GRAH!!


Yeah I don't work. So I guess thats a good enough reason to treat me like shit. Like when business people go to burgerking, and bitch about how they're better than them.

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Because of my colorful moodiness, I haven't been giving everyone the proper "hello" or "Hi!" lately. My grandparents won't even look at me sometimes when they come over. My dad hardly calls. Some of my closest friends have been put on the back burner because I can't set my sleeping habits straight. I have other priorities now, it seems. Being the back bone of the family. Teaching the kids responsibility and respect.

No one understands that... perhaps I am the one holding everybody together. I sure feel like I do.



I should've stayed in cali.

Or atleast found an apartment.

But nope. My grandma suckered me into believing it was my obligation to save my mother, yet again, from the grip of my step-fathers bullshit.

And so I did.

And I don't get credit for any of it.

What ever.</sub>

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CRAP


Today is just another day. But hey! Happy 4th of July people.

The one day out of the year where you can act a complete arrogant ass about your country.

Go on, toss that old couch on the lawn. Open a few beers, fart where everyone can hear you. Get close with that 'distant cousin' of yours.

Don't forget to disregard those fire-work safety regulations.




But seriously. Have fun. Congregate, live, love. ETC


Love Your Banana Space Jerky,
Andrea aka MzGrace.